6 months. An eighth of the entire time I had him. A lifetime gone in a single second but six months later nothing has changed. Or everything has. My world will never be the same but it certainly doesn't feel much better than it did six months ago. I'm trying to understand. Trying to be brave and strong and a real human with a real life in the real world. but not a day goes by when I don't think of him and feel my heart break. Not a day goes by that doesn't feel like forever. Six months worth of tiny forevers stealing my love away from me. I don't think I'll ever really understand. But goddamnit I will love him every second of my life.
Adam Sykes--my love, my friend--I miss you always. I love you no matter what.